Writer's Blockkkkkkkkk

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I can't even stand this. I haven't been able to write anything for the past... week? Two weeks? I'm not even sure. It sucks because I really really want to RP right now, but I just tried formulating a tag and it was bone-crunchingly excruciating. I couldn't even string two sentences together that made any sort of sense, and it was certainly not in the Master's voice. I haven't even been able to write songs lately. I'm just... stuck, man. Stuck. There's a bunch of different reasons-- lowered self-confidence due to my recent exits from some RPGs, dissatisfaction with RP and fandom in general, some medical stuff I'm dealing with right now, the season, relationships that seem to be going down the tubes...

Sooooo I'm not really looking for sympathy here, just wanted to give a heads-up and apologies to those I ought to be doing stuff with right now. In nearly three years of playing him I've never lost the Master's voice entirely, so this is a little scary, but I hope this phase goes away soon. I miss playing him, and I miss who I used to play with :(

Comments

[mind-the-tardis.livejournal.com]

No worries! This happens sometimes. And, hey, sometimes you even have to leave things behind entirely. It's not the end of the world if it happens. Tag when/if you feel like it.

[kindascary.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it just makes me sad. Thanks for understanding and I'll keep trying to find... that pesky megalomaniacal Time Lord voice. Gotta be in here somewhere <3<3

[mind-the-tardis.livejournal.com]

Sometimes the fun just leaves. It comes back or it doesn't. I've swapped out and written other characters for a while, and then come back to ones I hadn't written in weeks. If writing the Master is associated with RP angst and losing confidence, right now, putting some space between the angst and yourself by writing other folks for a bit might help. Dunno. Or doing some casual threading with people you already know/are really comfortable RPing with who like your Master.

Random unhelpful advice! But having your confidence kicked in the shins sucks :\

[kindascary.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it does. :/ Right now I think it's less about the specific character and more about my own lack of confidence when it comes to playing well with others. That, and the Master's really the only character I've been interested in playing in some time.

Bah, at least it's the holidays and it's the correct time to take a little break.

[mind-the-tardis.livejournal.com]

That, and the Master's really the only character I've been interested in playing in some time.

The character does this. I think it might be a Time Lord thing. They're the ultimate excuse to be able to know/do just about anything in RP. Time travel is a fantastic device for writing freedom.

[kindascary.livejournal.com]

I don't know about your experience, but in mine he also tends to be REALLY LOUD, metaphorically. As in "Why are you dabbling with that useless robot girl? What about ME? Aren't there some half-formed plans you've got in there for me to drastically improve upon?"

[mind-the-tardis.livejournal.com]

I've never had the headvoice experience, quite, where a character goes MEMEMEME. With the Master, for me, it's more that I've played him for about a year now, so playing anyone else means making an effort, heaven forbid, and he fits so well. I can use the way I think to write him, and it meshes. It comes easily.

I do have periods where other characters are 'stronger'—I'll really wish for a chance to play my metacrisis, for instance (I don't know why, but my metacrisis is the one I usually have brief I REALLY WANT TO DO SOMETHING WITH ASH periods. Probably because she's very different than the proper Time Lords). But the Master is a baseline. I rarely go HELL YES, I want to play you. It's more, oh, I'm RPing? *whips out the Master voices by reflex*

tl;dr!