(no subject)

was it all there before you in a dream?

                      was it something that only 
                                   --you-- 
                                  could see?

                 was it gold 
                                           or even better
was it weapons-grade metal

or a Glimpse of Your God?*

was it whi s s ss s    s  ssp er  e  d  right into the bones of your ears? 
((did you hear what you wanted to hear?))

did they take you 
              and make you
                      --believe-- it was clear 
                                          when they made you commander and 
                                                                      you couldn't be it?

well the women just didn't like your eyes and the big boys they
                      cut 
                  you
          down 
       to
size

when the war came you ran for your life as your businesses dried

were they all there before                      just waiting in line
                                     you   

      to include                       in their crudest design?
                             you    
 
                                   were Bad Fruit
                       you   

they knew          you      w oul dn't       r ip e n  o n   t  he   v    i  n e
((and they made you commander when 
             you couldn't be it

                                          You.
                                        Couldn't.
                                           Be.
                                           It.))

---

* as for jesus: you never felt much, but you prayed, cause you needed to believe that you could be saved

---

now in private  ... you don't cry but --- you have doubts ... 
it's just ... better --- if you never let them ... 

out. 

                                    it
            was                                                   all   
                        there 
                                     before                                   
                                                      you            i    n         a  

                             d       r           e             a       m        ?

                                  
                                  was it something that only you could see?
                           (('cause it's right there before you when you close your eyes))

                                                                 e
                                                            e e
                                                         s e
                                                       is   
                                                     i
you would kill it with a pill but it would still ri

(it's (the)) (pain)( of a) great(( love) you (cannot) deny. and) you may be commander but

YOU DON'T BELIEVE IT.
YOU DON'T BELIEVE IT.
YOU DON'T BELIEVE IT.
YOU DON'T BELIEVE IT.

-ty greenstein